Confessions are good for the soul... right?

Well after writing this I should feel MUCH better!   Let's hope.

I want to apologize to my followers.   I've fallen off, and have fallen HARD.   Whatever funk I'm in, I can't seem to pull myself out of.  I have 2 good days, then 3 bad, and so on.   I'm looking for a way to fix that.   I'm searching for my motivation to eat better.   The gym isnt the issue, I work out all the time.  It's the food.   And the "not stepping on the scale for a month".... Yeah, that was NOT a good idea.  For the past 16 days, I think I've been to the gym 5 times.   I've also eaten well over 1200 calories for those 16 days.   On November 1, I'm not expecting a loss at all.   SO that means, yet another month.  Wasted. 

Bottom line...

I am addicted to food.

Yes. I am.   That is a true statement, and I've known this for a long time.  But what do you do about it?  You can't quit eating, like I did smoking.  (which by the way I quit smoking last Sunday)  Anyway...

You need food to live, so quitting cold turkey obviously won't work.

Sugar and Carbohydrate detox??   Yeah...  that might work.  But honestly, anything with the word "detox" to me seems so "fad-ish".

2 Protein shakes, 2 snacks and dinner??   Um... no.   Not realistic.

So I've realized that the only way to tackle these last 50 lbs I have to lose, is to treat them like they were the  first 100 I've lost.

Back to basics for me.  No more than 1 cup of  food at a meal, protein first, and no drinking during.  Along with this, comes the most obvious lesson I've learned during all of this...

DUH!! right??  I mean, this makes the most sense of course.   My willpower SUCKS.  I"ll be the first to admit.  I just cannot say no to junk food.  If it's front of me, I eat it.  I HAVE to eat it.   The worst part, I can't stop at one bite.  I have to continue eating until it's gone.

Which brings me to my next confession...

Here's the funny part...    These Ice Cream Sandwiches were in the same freezer case as the Edy's Pumpkin Spice Ice Cream.  I sat there, and thought "I'll get the sandwiches instead, because I can control those portions better".   I was being semi-honest with myself.  I knew if I would've bought the gallon of Edy's, it wouldve been gone by the end of the night.   So - that night after dinner, which was a salad, I had 1 of these fantastic little ice cream sandwiches.   2 hours later, another.   And about 30 minutes after that, yet another.  I had 3 ice cream sandwiches, to the tune  of 600 calories in one evening.    I would've been better off with a blizzard.

That was Thursday.  Friday for lunch I had Taco Bell, then that night we had a Girls Night In at my bestie's house.   I had 2 slices of pepperoni pizza, a bottle of wine, a mudslide, some chili cheese dip and a brownie.

Saturday I woke up feeling like shit.   Food hangover??  Yep, more than likely.   My body just isnt used to being treated that way with food, and I felt horrible.   That feeling, however (and my tight pants) sparked something that gave me the motivation to get my ass up and get to the gym.  Plus - I was meeting a friend there, that just joined and she wanted me to show her my routine.  I was at the gym for 80 minutes, and whether she knows it or not, SHE motivated me to keep going yesterday.   846 calories later (YES!! my HR monitor came back to life!!!!!!)

I also decided to change the way I log my food.  I've used Livestrong.com for 6 years now, but the app for my phone sucks, so I can only log my food on an actual computer.  A few of my friends are using MyFitnessPal.com  and apparently the app for android was a good one, so I signed up.  And YES, the app is totally user friendly and I've officially switched.  Seeya Livestrong.   If you want to friend me, it's "JacCherg".  So after working out and keeping my food in check yesterday, I ended my day at 1109 NET.  I haven't been under 1200 NET in a LONG time.

Anyway - onto today... 

I'm heading to the gym in about an hour.  I'm meeting Aubrey again. Today is a cardio/legs day.  I'll throw some push ups and crunches in for good measure.  Mostly because I like they way I feel after doing them.   After the gym, I'll come home and have some lunch, 4 oz roasted butternut squash and 4 oz sauteed skirt steak.    Dinner will be some form of protein, and a veggie.  I HAVE to start eating more veggies.  They're filling and low in calories.  WIN WIN.. DUH Jaclyn.

Lunches this week will be a small salad and soup, or small salad paired with 4oz of some protein.  Not sure about snacks this week.  I need to change that up too, so if anyone has any ideas, I'll take em.  The turkey sticks/string cheese combo, while tasty, just isnt working anymore.

Since I've "talked" your ear off this morning, I'll leave you with this...

 

So yes friends...  it WILL be worth is.  These 100 lbs I've lost, has been worth it, so the next 50 will be worth it too!

As always, thanks for reading and following, I promise to be a better blogger friend!   Have a great Sunday!!